You’re right. I know I’m being ridiculous but I can’t help it. I wish I could just stop all this but it just gets to me some nights when I’m all alone. I’ll try though.
Finally deleted Jays number and all of our photos together from my phone. Deleting the one from my first week in phoenix with him, killed me inside, but I can’t keep looking at these photos and imagining he will come back to me. It’s over. I need to move on and find someone else and actually be happy.
So you get into a band that your partner likes because you want to do things that they like and then you break up and you have this handful of artists that are just fucking taking up space in your head with memories.
Dude I feel bad for you, but jesus christ. Get it together! Have some respect for yourself! You're letting this guy destroy you, and you need to NOT. Stop acting like you're never going to find love again! What kind of stupid thinking is that? You're hanging on, and it's time to let go and move on. He's not the love of your life. He's the love for a little while. Get off the floor, stop being Taylor Swift. And GET HAPPY.
I’m just laying here sobbing. Why can’t I get over him?
I keep trying to move on. I really do. I go on dates, I meet new people, I hang out with friends, but all I can think about is you. Every time I lay down at night I wish you were here. Every morning I wake up I wish you were sleeping next to me. I close my eyes and I see your face. I’m so lost. I don’t want this anymore. I don’t want to love you anymore it hurts too much.